Charging My Batteries

As I read along in scripture the days proceeding Easter I sense the longing and need of the people for a change....a refreshing .....a promise of something better to come .And I feel the same as I wait for spring to come in all it's glory and stay ! I'm longing to shed the dregs of a too long winter ,to feel the warm earth beneath my bare toes ,and the kiss of the sun not sabatoged by the relentlessness of the north wind. Not dribs and drabs of something but the whole deal .  At this time in the Bible ,I also believe the citizens of that time and place were also seeking the whole deal.Not just a shot in the arm or a quick fix but a whole new life of something good to believe in .....something to light the dark path.....something to hold onto ......something solid . One day their hopes are high after witnessing miracles of restored sight and walking on legs that once would not stand . Then they would listen to Jesus speak and what He would impart was very confusing ,beyond their earthly comprehension. So many hows? And no clear answers. And I have to admit that had been part of the crowd at that time not knowing what I thankfully know now I would have struggled bigtime trying to make one plus one equal two. I would compare it to being on a rollercoaster ride with the highs and lows. And there are many times as I read Jesus's words that I mumble to myself and ask of God why Jesus couldn't have spoken more plainly .  You don't go into a crowd of mes and thems and orate as Sheldon from the Big Bang Theory. And where Jesus said He came from and where He was going and what others would need to do if they wanted the same to me was pretty darn headscratching . Sure if you're really desparate and are willing to just grab onto the first one or thing that comes along or if something very Godly has entered your heart and makes it very clear of the direction you are to go as seemed to have happened to the twelve and other disciples of the time then following would be an thing to do but then again we know that even those closest to Jesus had their moments of headscratching. Sadly I feel that the people never had a chance .....they were set up to fail . They did not  have the advantage of hindsight . Just as I long for spring's embrace it does  me no good to hear someone booked in weather wax on regarding this layer of atmosphere,that wind current , this or that system .I know what I see and I know what I feel . One day I'm in a sweatshirt working outside even sweating somewhat in a sheltered area and the next day I'm digging like a dog burying a bone in the bag of gloves and hats. I just need to keep my batteries charging so everytime the sun shines I plug in just the way those of scripture kept plugging in looking for the plain truth ,something to grasp that made sense . Thanks be to God, I can read Jesus's words and understand because I have the whole story in front of me with my Bible  and I also have my winterwear still hanging close by fot the days that just don't make sense.